@cybernetic Man I see you talking about "myoreps" and "RPE" and "daily undulating periodization" and "autoregulation" and "mesocycles" and all sorts of down-in-the-weeds details ... and as far as I can tell you've got a program where you're down into neck and calf and forearm volume but you don't have a single hip hinge anywhere?
You are definitely majoring in the minors from every angle I can see. It's like you're trying to perfect your technique for poaching eggs and you can't even boil one properly.
You could've started with a really shitty novice linear progression program like StrongLifts or Starting Strength and you would be leaps and bounds ahead of where you are right now.
You do you but I think the general gist of the responses here is the same: you should take a step back and start over from scratch. Do a real program that many other people have used to get strong (GZCLP, SBS RTF, 5/3/1 for Beginners, whatever), run it for a few months
as written, and then reevaluate from there.