@mamabdog Its noise, just tune it out. Also, for every gym shark fuck out there, there are 100 or 1000 guys who fucked themselves up, there are 10xx guys who are battling side effects, there are 10xx guys suffering from psychological problems, anxiety, depression associated with their drug use, there are 10xx guys that wasted their money on bad shit, and all have not too much to show for it, or if they do, it is just superficial.
Any, and I mean ANY problem you have in your life is still there when you are big and still there when you are shredded.
I'm not going to try to convince you NOT to take drugs, that is your choice to make and yours alone, but you need to become an expert on it before you do it. Don't just be enamored by the insta life bullshit, but talk to everyone that uses, and discover for yourself the reality of that life, and the downsides to it before determining if it is for you.
If I were you, I would keep my head down, blinders on, and just keep working. You look great now, great base, lots to work with. Give yourself 5 really good more years of improvement and then reassess. It also gives you time to grow up a little, mature, figure out who you are, and then determine if drug use helps you achieve the goals you have or not.
Every dude who has ever lifted has faced this situation, you are not alone, but live a little life before you permanently alter the course of it for something that in the grand scheme of it doesn't matter too much (like being more jacked than you already are)