Naming it as grief is really interesting to me, and I’m still digesting it, but I’m hoping it helps bring the kindness needed to fight that pressure to be ultra-productive.
Bagels sound really nice and comforting right now, honestly.
@mam2011 Thank you so much for this it does feel a bit like grief - I've been fighting depression for a while and moved to Toronto about a month ago. I was so excited to get a change and have more opportunities, and my mental health was starting to get better than it had been in years, but the city shut down almost right after we got here. It almost feels like I'm mourning the excitement and optimism I was starting too feel.
I've been having everything bagels with (vegan) margarine and they are SO comforting tbh. Definitely would recommend it.
@mam2011 Thank you for sharing this, I really helped to shed light on what I'm feeling in this confusing time.
I feel like this is all I can talk about on Reddit this week, but I've had an absolutely traumatizing month and it has nothing to do with Coronavirus. I think I was in denial that I was grieving, but to have someone say it like that, I feel like the floodgates have opened.
@mam2011 It makes sense. I'm grieving my ability to go take barre and spin classes. I'm grieving my ability to socialize in person and visit family. I'm grieving the cancelation (well, indefinite postponement) of our epic trip to California, and our plan to see Beetlejuice on Broadway. I'll most likely be grieving my job next week and grieving my previous sense of economic stability.
@bleslikethat I agree. If I spend two hours of my 24 day at home being productive, I’ll call that a win. I’m not going to force myself to find some new task or activity to do just to feel productive every hour of the day.
And honestly, mario and bagels sounds REALLY good right now
@gumcareblog I needed to hear this. I finally worked out this afternoon for my mental health and it’s like day 9 without gym access. I’m trying to just do the best I can, when I can.
@gumcareblog I think I need this more than I realized. I’ve convinced myself that not lifting heavy at the gym 2x a week and doing home workouts instead means I have to work out 5+ times a week now, which is rapidly starting to feel like, yep, orthorexic high school me doing YT workouts in my bedroom. I know I need to move every day for my mental health, but I need to convince myself that “moving” doesn’t have to mean “45 mins of muscle-fatiguing calisthenics”.
@mam2011 I don't know where you are, but in most places you're still able to go walk if you keep your distance/don't go to super crowded places. Taking my pup to the park has helped keep me sane!
I've also started dancing in the mornings to combat the struggle of waking up (since time is losing all meaning..). Not anything structured, just some seriously dorky bopping to upbeat music. It's a great way to get moving without worrying about reps or whatever
@gumcareblog I think I really needed this. I'd just begun my fitness journey about a two months ago, and it took a while just to get going to the gym regularly. After I started to enjoy the burn of a workout, it was easier to motivate myself.
And then lockdown hit, and I came to terms with the fact that it'll be a while until I can go back to that.
I was feeling super guilty because I did not have motivation to work out at home. It's tougher, and I don't have enough space nor privacy for it.
@aspire Same--I had just started lifting a month ago and was so excited to eat well and get into better shape and it seemed like everything in my life was going well...
It's so hard to do anything now. I've always hated calisthenics, and after a week of them I have no motivation in doing more. I feel so stuck--I'm working on my undergrad thesis, which I am super excited about, but I can barely work on it for an hour a day. I have no interest in the crafts I normally do. It's a bit like being depressed. This sucks and it's so fucking unreasonable that society thinks we need to/are even capable of maintaining the same levels of fitness and productivity, etc.
@monbelubi I get you, I just laze around all day, eat to survive, and watch my online lessons. That's all. It sucks, but this environment isn't the kind to motivate me at all.
You can always get back into your routine slowly after this situation end.
@aspire I’m in the same boat, was getting great momentum since the beginning of 2020 in prep for 2021 wedding and was getting better at the gym and started reformer pilates which I was loving but now it’s all closed and haven’t been able to get into the groove of home workouts even though I do have a couple of kettlebells and could do it - just the stress of everything has been a real mental struggle and I’m a creature of habit.
Trying to challenge my though process each morning to get up a bit earlier again and do some kind of workout even though I know if won’t be the same as gym. But I do think too hey if it takes me a week or two to find the motivation to do a 10 minute workout if it’s only that, well that’s still an achievement. Times like these can become very draining on mental health, just gotta hang in there the best we can
I’m feeling extra down because last summer I sprained my pelvis. It took me out of work for almost 3 months (it happened while at work, and I work on my feet). My physical therapist told me no yoga/gym until healed. So I guess what I’m saying is that I feel like I JUST went through this, and I have to watch my progress back slide again.
Not only am I feeling depressed and unmotivated, I’m also afraid to go running outside in case my pelvis goes out of place (which it will do, from time to time). I also got my period last week so I’m letting that be an excuse for a while. I’m depressed. Ever since I got really consistent with the gym a few years ago, I’ve been noticing drastic spikes in my depression when I can’t go. That’s the thing that really bothers me.
it does feel a bit like grief - I've been fighting depression for a while and moved to Toronto about a month ago. I was so excited to get a change and have more opportunities, and my mental health was starting to get better than it had been in years, but the city shut down almost right after we got here. It almost feels like I'm mourning the excitement and optimism I was starting too feel. 
