joyce65714
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I don't think anything can be done about this, I just need to get this out somewhere.
Been a big boy my entire life. Got up to 240 lbs in college. I got down to 203 in 2019 at 23 y/o and felt and looked great.
I went through an incredibly tough time in 2021 and ballooned my weight to 255.
Over the past year, I've been losing weight again and I've been lifting for 5 months. I'm 204.5 as of this morning.
I look worse than I did in 2019, even though I'm healthier than I was at that point due to actually working out this time. I have visible biceps and triceps. I can see my chest muscles (only near the armpit, but I still have too much bf). My thighs and quads have definition that they've never had before. But, I have belly overhang that I didn't have back then. My moobs are bigger. Back then, I couldn't even do 5 pushups, but I could get down and crank out 20 right now without breaking a sweat. Overall, I look worse now than I did when I was weaker.
The reason I know I look worse is because I have shirtless photos of myself from 2019 that I saved because I was proud. I'm proud of it now, too, but I decidedly look worse now than I did.
It's absolutely infuriating. At 6'1, I'm only 14 lbs away from no longer being overweight. I still look like I weigh 230. Fucking shit cock motherfucking assblasting FUCK.
That is all.
Been a big boy my entire life. Got up to 240 lbs in college. I got down to 203 in 2019 at 23 y/o and felt and looked great.
I went through an incredibly tough time in 2021 and ballooned my weight to 255.
Over the past year, I've been losing weight again and I've been lifting for 5 months. I'm 204.5 as of this morning.
I look worse than I did in 2019, even though I'm healthier than I was at that point due to actually working out this time. I have visible biceps and triceps. I can see my chest muscles (only near the armpit, but I still have too much bf). My thighs and quads have definition that they've never had before. But, I have belly overhang that I didn't have back then. My moobs are bigger. Back then, I couldn't even do 5 pushups, but I could get down and crank out 20 right now without breaking a sweat. Overall, I look worse now than I did when I was weaker.
The reason I know I look worse is because I have shirtless photos of myself from 2019 that I saved because I was proud. I'm proud of it now, too, but I decidedly look worse now than I did.
It's absolutely infuriating. At 6'1, I'm only 14 lbs away from no longer being overweight. I still look like I weigh 230. Fucking shit cock motherfucking assblasting FUCK.
That is all.