@jill3131 Thank you!
I am very happy that I didn't rebound. I was extremely cautious and did a lot of research regarding post show rebound and depression, which I have seen a couple of my friends struggle with. It was very, very hard seeing myself so shredded one day then maybe 2-3 days later I looked different. Just water of course, but it was weird. Glad I had a plan in place.
My goal right now is 2000 cals, at least 150g protein. I have no problem meeting my protein goal as I eat a lot of meat, eggs, greek yogurt, beans, protein powder and bars on occasion. My diet changed a lot through prep. I started slowly decreasing carbs. First, no carbs at dinner, then none at lunch, then none for breakfast! I was pretty much keto for 3-4 weeks at least. Only a couple refeeds, then the week before the show I brought carbs back and hallelujah it makes such a difference! I maxed out around 1400 calories, all protein and fat and veggies during prep.
I didn't have any extra problems with binging. I have struggled with binging my whole life, but I think I was so terrified of undoing my hard work that I was ok with slowly bring back carbs. I had a few treats right after the show then I got right back on track. I can now pretty much eat whatever I want and it doesn't really affect me day to day. I have learned discipline I never had before the show. It actually changed who I am (in a very good way). I will say I actually had a problem eating enough. I was so used to low calorie that I felt stuffed all the time. Ug! It took my body several weeks to adjust. I added 150cals/day each week until I was at a surplus. Was not easy, but it worked!
I have definitely made some gains, but not near what I was hoping for. I know it's 100% my diet because I still struggle to eat over maintenance some days. But I so badly want to be bigger that I think I'm getting over my fears! Most notably I'd say my triceps, delts, and quads have seen some growth. And my lats, definitely have more width on top! My abs are no where to be seen haha! That's ok, I'll keep working on them.